My Life Dismantles

November 2016

Is this part of the ‘Glastonbury Experience’ people talk of? The hero’s journey, where you are called in, and what no longer serves you leaves? That would describe what has happened to me, with such a force … it was breath taking.

It began in April 2014, just a year after moving here. It was announced that my employer, Zebra, was to acquire my Alliance partner, Motorola Enterprises. After the initial shock, my first reaction was a sense of pride.

I had spent nine years building the Alliance, putting my heart and soul into it. What a moment!  Before I could even think about what that meant for me, everyone was calling me to see what I thought. I thought, I will be utilised to continue my role of uniting the two.

We went into 2015 as one company. All the structures were put in place, but I still didn’t know where I was going to be. I was called to a meeting with my manager to update me. It was only then, when I saw the look on his face, that I knew … this was not good. I was guided upstairs to HR and they broke the news: I was being made redundant. It was like I was hearing it, but not hearing it. But, how come? I’ve built this Alliance in Europe. People are getting promoted, and I am getting my notice?

I went into shock but held myself together well. There were practical things I had to take care of, but I could feel this pain in my solar plexus. I knew what it was: I felt so let down.

It took me a long time to get over it. Yet here I was, free to do what I wanted, and that lifted me, but it didn’t work out the way I hoped. By March 2016, I felt like I was in hell on earth. The money had run out, the car died and had to go to scrap, and for the first time in my life, I had to walk into a job centre to claim benefit.

The work coach who greeted me was lovely. She looked at my CV and then looked up at me puzzled and asked, ‘What are you doing here, with all this experience?’ I burst into tears. I answered, ‘I don’t know, but maybe it is part of my path to experience this…’

But it was going to be an experience that would test me beyond anything I have ever known. It was going to bring up every fear I ever held, not least being, How do I keep the roof over my head? I was going to have any rose-tinted glasses I may have worn removed, and life was going to be dominated by one thing: survival.

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Be You
Love Through Diversity
New Creation 2021
Coming Full Circle
My Life... Dismantles
Glastonbury Calling!
The Heart Knows
Wake-Up Call
Trusting My Instincts
Triumph & Tragedy
Manifesting a Dream
A Humble Start

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